For the past couple of days I've been filled with anger and frustration. I'm basically pissed off at the world. Heavy metal is the only thing keeping me from losing my freaking sanity and it helps get rid of my aggression.
One of the biggest things that's just about pushed me over the edge is the feeling of loneliness that's practically consuming my soul. I long for female companionship so much that it's almost physically painful. I'm not just talking about friendship. I want some intimacy in my life once more. I once had that, but those past relationships failed for one reason or another. I'm at the point where I'm craving sexual activity like a damn drug.
Of course I want a meaningful relationship with intimacy, but I honestly don't see that happening anytime soon. Is it so wrong to hope to find a female friend with benefits? I see nothing wrong with this.
Some who read this may think I'm a pervert or sex manic, but those who know me at all know this isn't true. I'm a human being with sexual desires like anyone else. If this labels me as a bad person then so be it. I know what kind of person I am and I really don't care how people who don't know me chose to judge me.
A disabled person having strong sexual desires is not a damn taboo as some people still think it is. I'm a normal man who just happens to have a disability.